temple and a dream

I don't want to live forever, i just want to live while i'm alive.

Temple, the old ones are so old, feeble, and in wheelchairs. they are shells of themselves. one is over 100.

i remember what they were like before the strokes and wheelchairs.

let me die young. whats the point of living when you're like that?

sitting down, too much time to think, p.

"doctor doctor won't you help me? too many sick thoughts, my mind ain't healthy."

mlk day, memphis and journey back from chi-town. made a visit with Q and D.

will.i.am

just woke up an hour ago. its 2 am now.

melvin

seriously, why would u name ur kid that if ur last name is Calvin?

thats just horrible.

Finally deleted

her damn number.

no job, no money, no girl, no health.

but at least theirs a plan, and family and friends...

still happy.

A Police Officer

ITs too late for Austin and Houston, but...perhaps I should be a Police Officer...or wait for 2011 because the Austin Police Force pays 60,000 to start off. Yes...60,000.

Wolverine...

my will

car - parents
dvd's - carlos
bobbleheads - quincy
tpb - hao and daniel
comics - 1 box to mike (lauries)
1 box to devin
1 box to minh
largest box to homer
paperbacks and textbooks to be distributed randomly to hai, tung, rohan, matt, mike, pearl, jessica.
desk, shelves, and other furniture to some random cousin
clothes - steven

for steven, hao and daniel - to finish my stories and see them in print. ALL OF THEM

to my organs, unless i did something to em, for hospitals.

wow, there's not a lot.

status report

better...but not by much.

Realized i'm like american pie, without alyson hannigan. sent an email to that girl way in chicago, not really expecting a reply.

no changes on match, ditto for pof. sent three more messages.

no response from priss, probably won't.

off to texans game

get haircut, get tatoo, and remember new fundamental rule...

the Rock.

amazing concidence or god

Been sick, having spent new years eve and day alone cause my family were away. Then rolled Saturday, jan 2nd.

Still sick, bout to sleep, but sis woke me up by accident. Then the pain suddenly hit, i was dreaming about her, we were together. Despite the copious amounts of nyquil, i couldn't sleep or stop thinking bout her.

Just sad and frustrated all rolled into one, i texted her hurt i was. she first said, what are you talking about, followed by, i'm sorry.

Doesn't help. I'm a an idiot.

But then d, q, d's s and g, and prl came. What an amazing concidence i thought.

Had i been asleep, i may not have known they'd come. and its good cause i was on the cusp, a real line with d. had been hurt by callous comments, and often poor timing with jokes on serious matters. but perhaps there is something out there.

needed it.